The race is on...

When I plunged into this race, I didn't know it would get so disappointing at some point of time and that too this early! The defeat gets to you! It really does! What seemed perfect earlier seems distorted now. I guess V* was right, choosing strong words for defeat, even if it is others hits you harder.
This trade is not that easy as I thought it would be. But then nothing is.

Ah! Why am I writing such depressing posts of late!
I think what I need is a change of mood. Change of place. Change of focus.
Let change come to me or let me go towards change.

Cheers!

New beginning...

It is time! Yes, time for me to move on. To leave the past defeats behind and welcome a new beginning with open arms. So far, I've had a jittery start with a goof up at the counselling venue which I'm finding too hard to forget! How could I have been so absent minded. Sometimes, I surprise myself.
Though Patna was my first choice amongst the options available but still I've my reservations regarding it. Courtesy, public opinion about the place! I guess I'll have to take a FB sabbatical yet again to prevent myself from drowning in the pool of comments.
This 3 month long break has really taken a toll on me. I seem to have forgotten most of the subject matter . I'm scared. Apprehensive. Lost. Excited. All at the same time.
Though, I'll be just 1hr 20 minutes away from home but there is much I'll be leaving behind for 3 yrs. I didn't cry while going to MRU but this time I'm sure I will.
There are times we earnestly wish for something and when we receive the gift, we wonder if this is what we always wanted!?

Okay, I know I should stop ranting and just enjoy the journey.